It was seventh grade. I wanted it to be the best year so I could cherish it, And remember it for the rest of my life. It was! I made a lot of friends, Had an amazing, Loving boyfriend, And I always got good grades! I laughed, And fooled around a lot. It was great! But then I got dumped. My grades were bad during every semester. Took me 6 months to get over him. When I finally did, Things were great! My grades were starting to get better. Til' one day I couldn't breathe. Every breath I had to gasp for air, Through my mouth. I took a shower, Thinking maybe after that it would go away, And my mom wouldnt have to worry. But when I got out and went into my room to change, The gasps of air were no longer good enough. I grabbed my inhaler. It didn't work. So I screamed for my mom, And she told me to rest. I did. I woke up the next morning for school, And it got better. But I still had to gasp for air. At school I noticed my right side was hurting. Not bad enough for my appendix. So I went to the nurse, And got sent home constantly for a week. Finally, I went to the doctors and got diagnosed with Mono. My grades went low from all the school work I was missing. I skipped a month of school. Still gasping for air. It was bad. I worked on my school work, And got it all done. And returned to school. Two weeks later I went to the doctors for my check up. And told her my side had been hurting. This time though, It was the left. She checked it, And said something was there. She said it was either a baby, Or a tumor. I got a note from her to go to the ER the next day for x-rays after school. I also mentioned my back pains, And side pains. She felt them and gave us a date for the back X-rays. My back pains were worse then my grandmother's. Pretty sad right? Also, I had problems with my heart. I had the worst heart pains imaginable. So that night I went to my dad's. And From about 9pm to 10:20pm I had an aching pain on my right side. I couldn't even move. So I layed down to relax. It got worse. I got up to get a drink and fell to the floor. I was balling my eyes out. I called my mom and told her, She told me to wake my dad up and have him bring me to the ER, And she would meet us there. By the time we left the ER it was about 5:00 am. Results came back the next day, And they told me I had several tumors on each of my ovaries. They said that the pains will be about the same as labor pains well I'm on my period. The problem with that was, I had er-regular periods every month. About three a month. Every period for about a week. I was only off my period for three days in between. I always struggled with cramps. They were so bad that I couldn't get up. So I started takig two pain reliever pills every day, And every night. When I asked my doctor for birth control pills she said no. So I had to struggle with the pain for most of my life. I failed school. An F in almost every class. I have to go to summer school because of it. I am so upset, Because it wasn't my fault I failed. I am going for surgery on my foot in the middle of eighth grade. I am hoping that doesn't tear me down. And I am still waiting on my results for my back pains. I want to have a good year in eighth grade.
So, Seventh grade didn't turn out as well as I had hoped. And I still get the sweatyness from the mono, And I still have neck pains, And every now and then I will have to gasp for air. And the pains from my ovaries are worse then ever. And I am still attempting to get on birth control.
Even though this isn't the life I had signed up for, It goes on. And even though these things try and stop me from doing things, I try to not let it effect me. I do as I can. I enjoy life. Because the struggles I went through this year helped me realize that life is to valuable to waste. So don't sit around on your laptop, Or in front of a TV your whole life. And don't wish for school to be over with, Because believe it or not, These are going to be the best years of your life. So enjoy it. Live it. Take risks, And if you fail, At least you tried. You don't want your life to end with you living with regrets. So don't do what people want you to do, And just go for it. It's your life. Live it. Because it goes by quicker then you think. And as you get older things will get harder.
So, Seventh grade didn't turn out as well as I had hoped. And I still get the sweatyness from the mono, And I still have neck pains, And every now and then I will have to gasp for air. And the pains from my ovaries are worse then ever. And I am still attempting to get on birth control.
Even though this isn't the life I had signed up for, It goes on. And even though these things try and stop me from doing things, I try to not let it effect me. I do as I can. I enjoy life. Because the struggles I went through this year helped me realize that life is to valuable to waste. So don't sit around on your laptop, Or in front of a TV your whole life. And don't wish for school to be over with, Because believe it or not, These are going to be the best years of your life. So enjoy it. Live it. Take risks, And if you fail, At least you tried. You don't want your life to end with you living with regrets. So don't do what people want you to do, And just go for it. It's your life. Live it. Because it goes by quicker then you think. And as you get older things will get harder.
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